Progress rather than Perfection

This whole "stay at home mom" thing is HARD WORK! I'll be the first one to admit that I have no clue really what I am doing and yet I'm weeks away from having my 4th (yeah I said 4th) baby. My life is so unorganized and cluttered that my motivation to want to make it better is quickly swept away when I get started and realize it's so overwhelming for one person to do!
I need a routine!
I need HELP!!!
I hate admitting that I can't do all this on my own. I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of responsibilities and tasks that I should know instinctively how to do with no life-jacket, raft, or rescue party coming for me. No one even knows I'm drowning so they aren't gonna look for me yet! I hate asking for help!
I've decided to dog paddle to shore. Shore is my goal. The place in life where I know I want to be! It's gonna be a long swim but I know I can do it. I have to do it...I have no choice! I know I'm going to go under the water every once in a while. I know at some point I'm going to want to give up and sink to the bottom of the ocean but that isn't an option. I have enough determination and will power to do what I should be doing.
I started with Zoey and Zane! I have (regrettfully) allowed them to sleep on the couch and watch TV all night long up until now. I am happy to say that last night was night number 3 of them sleeping in their beds. Zane sleeps all night in his and Zoey with get up and come snuggle with David and I in the middle of the night and then decide on her own to go back to her "big girl bed"!
Also, on my list of things to accomplish this week is cleaning the house for my jewelry party! I am doing well and pacing myself so as not to over do it. The last thing I want to do is break my water or go into labor early. I have a list of things that my "shore" includes and I can't wait to get to shore.
I have asked the Lord to help me. I want to be a good mom, wife, and house keeper! I am working hard and I am determined to figure this out.
My reasons to be a better person, mom, and wife...

29 weeks!!!

Today I'm 29 weeks pregnant with baby Rock! I had forgotten what the last trimester feels like. I think the Lord above does that on purpose. If we remembered EXACTLY how we felt during the last stretch of baby growing then we wouldn't have so many people on this Earth or maybe I'm just being a wimp. All I know is that I'm ready to meet this little person who has invaded my body! This is baby #4 for me and it still amazes me at the little miracle growing inside me! I had forgotten how much I missed those secret little kicks and movements that only I can feel. Absolutely amazing!!! The past couple of days I have just been so exhausted. I haven't really done a whole lot but by 7pm I'm ready to crash. My body hurts and I can barely keep my eyes open. Have I mentioned lately how much I absolutely LOVE David? He's quite the neat freak and our house right now is anything but. I know it absolutely drives him crazy but he hasn't said a word about it. I'm trying my best to keep up with everything and at least keep the dishes, trash, clothes, and toys taken care of. With a baby on the way and a 2 and 3 yr old running around making messes everytime I turn around no wonder I'm exhausted! I have a jewelry party on Friday so I had better get my butt in gear!

                                           HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY to my little sister Meghan!

Also, heard from my little brother in the Army and he is doing well! I should write him another letter this week. Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Count your blessings EVERYDAY!!!

This morning I watched my little ones sleep for awhile! They are so precious! I thanked the Lord for trusting me enough to give me such precious packages! I love them so much and couldnt imagine my life without them! Zane woke up first and was very clingy and then Zoey woke up and she was crying and cranky! After a challenging dressing time I was very frusterated and irritated! I asked them if they wanted to go get donuts and they got so excited. So we loaded up in the van and daddy took us to get donuts (even tho he should have been working already...love that man)! On the way we drove by the implement lot and Zane says, "Oh cool!" as he is looking out the window! Zoey was so excited at the donut shop to get the very last sprinkle donut and the lady put it in her own little bag for her to carry. This made Zane quite angry and it was a crying fest on the short drive home. After a few fits of I can't reach my truck under the bed and I lost my Barbies I checked my facebook and found that a friend of mine had lost her 1 yr old nephew yesterday to cancer! This stopped me dead in my tracks! "Thank you LORD, for the fits this morning, the lipstick in the carpet yesterday, the water dumped on the bathroom floor at bathtime, the wake up calls in the middle of the night for whatever reason, for letting me be the hero of reaching the truck under the bed and finding the missing barbies, for me having to tell Dawson to clean his room and put his clothes away AGAIN, for having to tell him for the 100th time to go brush his teeth or get his shoes on! Thank you for every single second I have with my babies and my loved ones!" My thoughts and prayers go out to the Krone family in their time of loss! I can't imagine what you are going through but I pray the Lord wraps his loving arms around you and you find some comfort knowing he is no longer hurting!

Donuts and Juice this morning! Thank you Lord for letting me be their mommy!

Figuring this thing out!

It's a beautiful day out today and I'm loving this spring like weather!! The kids are in the living room watching a movie for a little while! I told them we would go out and play after lunch as long as they keep the house picked up. My belly is getting pretty big and bending over is becoming a huge challenge! This baby is in my rib cage. I'm thinking of getting my porch, flower pots, and garden ready for some flowers while secretly praying we are moving before or shortly after this baby is born! Our perfect little house from 5 years ago has become too small for all of us. I have all these ideas in my head of things I should and want to do, but truth be told...my energy level is on low! I need a pick-me-up! I hope everyone has a wonderful day! Tell me what you did...

David, Zoey, and Zane building a log cabin with Lincoln Logs! I love when our mornings start out like this!

Getting Started...

I've decided to start a blog...lol! Like I don't have enough to do! I figured it was one place where I can put anything and everything. Pictures of the kids, travel, cakes, and let family and friends know what's going on in our lives! I'm working hard to get it up and running but am finding that it's actually harder than it looks! I'll get the bugs and kinks worked out someday!